Sucker of Sap

I found what might be a rare bird in a park near my house on Sunday, but of course I didn't have my camera, and then it flew away, and then I wasn't 100% sure what I had seen. THE RED-BREASTED SAPSUCKER. But it also might've been a hybrid bird. But I don't know. Anywho, we've been back to the park several times and have been unable to find it. It is really frustrating. I'm so upset right now. Upset in a weird quiet depressed way. Dumb birds. Why u do this to me! I'm drowning my sorrows in the music of Guster.